He knows how to bring people back, but not - not with as much free will and self-control as I have. That's new, that's what he was trying to do, to see if he could. And it worked.

The cost is - it hurt. I feel strange in my body, like I'm not connected to it the right way, I'm always conscious of the weight and the shape of it all the time, like the way you can't stop feeling the sore gap after you lose a baby tooth. I get angry a little easier and happiness is a little harder, but I still know myself. I can't see colors and I can't smell anything at all. I'm going to have a death toll when this is over and it's probably going to be really miserable.

I wouldn't recommend it as - anything permanent. But I don't regret it either.