[Simply, but not as though it's obvious. It took her a lot of horror to get to this place where she shares easily.]
I wasn't technically...you'd think, to look at it, that I wasn't alone. My mother was human too. But she wasn't...there, for me. It was like she fell into this...this pit inside her and she couldn't climb out of it enough to care about me, or anything, and I couldn't reach her to help her out. And I started to hate her, eventually, for being so close and leaving me alone anyway.
[She still sounds calm, even. Not cold to it, but not bleeding or aching any longer. She leaves unspoken that the Nathan on the other barge reminded her of her mother.]
I could never really understand what my father's betrayal did to her, after coming through the camps together. And she could never understand how I had worshipped him when I was small. But we didn't need to understand each other to be less alone, we just...needed to listen, to connect. And neither of us could, then.
So. I know it's different, that I can't really imagine what it's like for you. But no one can really really know anyone else, can they? But we can listen anyway.
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[Simply, but not as though it's obvious. It took her a lot of horror to get to this place where she shares easily.]
I wasn't technically...you'd think, to look at it, that I wasn't alone. My mother was human too. But she wasn't...there, for me. It was like she fell into this...this pit inside her and she couldn't climb out of it enough to care about me, or anything, and I couldn't reach her to help her out. And I started to hate her, eventually, for being so close and leaving me alone anyway.
[She still sounds calm, even. Not cold to it, but not bleeding or aching any longer. She leaves unspoken that the Nathan on the other barge reminded her of her mother.]
I could never really understand what my father's betrayal did to her, after coming through the camps together. And she could never understand how I had worshipped him when I was small. But we didn't need to understand each other to be less alone, we just...needed to listen, to connect. And neither of us could, then.
So. I know it's different, that I can't really imagine what it's like for you. But no one can really really know anyone else, can they? But we can listen anyway.